Showing posts with label Multiple Sclerosis. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Multiple Sclerosis. Show all posts

Thursday, October 31, 2013

I miss her.

She's 15.


She's young.
She's vibrant.
She's playful.
She's delightful.
She's intelligent.
She's innocent.
She's care-free.
She's active.
She's healthy.
She's captivating.
She's amazing.

I miss her.

Not in a "I really wish I could go visit her" kind of way.  Not in a "I wish we could sit and chat for a while" kind of way.  Not in a "boy were those ever fun times" kind of way.  I do, however, think all of those things from time to time.

Nope.

I miss her in the "I wish I could walk around in her skin" kind of way.

I miss her vibrant, playful attitude.
I miss her care-free (okay, as "care-free" as a Type-A can get) outlook.
I miss her healthy, active body.
I miss the way she delighted in life.
I miss waking up in her skin every morning.

I miss her.

I miss me.

Life's taken a bit of a toll on that sweet 15 year old version of me.  Life's been unkind...and also kind.  Life's knocked that lovely young lady down a bit...and picked her up a time or two.  Life's been so...lifey.  SO lifey.  And that girl?  

That

young
vibrant
playful
delightful
intelligent
innocent
care-free
active
healthy
captivating
amazing

girl?

She's sacrificed so much of herself in an effort to keep moving forward that she's forgotten, in so many ways, who she was made to be.  She's put on a brave face...often too brave...in order to look like she is still who she's always been.  

She's in there.  I'm sure she is.    She's still playful.  She's still vibrant.  (She's not as young anymore.)  She's care-free.  She's captivating.  She's still amazing.

I miss her.

I think I'll invite her to come back.


God, please be You so I can just be me!

Friday, August 10, 2012

You'll love the view


I sent a message to a friend this morning, and then thought perhaps she wasn’t the only one that needed it.  I hope she doesn’t mind me passing it along to a couple thousand other friends as well, because we’re all in the middle of something, and each of you could probably use a bit of encouragement for something.  I shared this with some other people recently, because they were upset that someone had said their fight was a "harder fight" than the one these people were going through:
                                         
You'll get through this. You will. The way I see it, whatever you are going through RIGHT NOW is the biggest battle you've ever dealt with…or anyone has. Your battle RIGHT NOW is huge. But in a little while, you'll be past this (at least for a bit) and it won't feel quite as huge...and your NEXT thing will be the biggest battle ever. We're still in the middle of the "battle" with Bugsy, but since we're kind of in a lull, I don't think about it much. But when Stinky broke his leg? That was the hardest thing I've dealt with as a mommy...because I was in it RIGHT THEN. When I look at them side by side, obviously the 6 surgeries Bugsy’s has had, particularly the three 12+ hour skull surgeries, are WAY bigger than a broken leg.  But in the thick of it?  THIS battle is the hardest.


I don't know if that's helpful. Maybe not. But I guess I just mostly want to say hang in there, because in a year...2 years...10 years...you'll likely look back and remember that this was the hardest thing you'd ever dealt with to that point...but you'll have come out a stronger, better, fiercer mama because of it, and you'll be at a point where you'll be able to see where God's hand was all along. Your perspective will have changed, and while you will probably never be "grateful" for this journey, you'll be able to see some beauty in what it's done in your life.


I'm praying for you. It's HARD to be "that mom." Super hard. There are so very many emotions EVERY minute of EVERY day. There are some things you just have to learn to accept, and that is terrifying. But you'll make it out. You'll get to the other side. And you'll love the view from there.

Tuesday, March 13, 2012

Multiple Sclerosis Awareness Week!

Happy MS Awareness Week!

Exciting, isn't it?  Yippee!  Let's all talk about Multiple Sclerosis!  That sounds like a great party!  I want to go!

Or not.  Who wants to talk about these things?  Who cares?

I care.

My family cares.  My friends care.

Multiple Sclerosis is real.  It's "invisible," it's scary, it sometimes painful, and it's real.

Maybe you don't know anything about MS.  Maybe you've heard the name, but that's where it ends.  Maybe when you hear "MS" your mind immediately goes to a wheelchair.

I know a woman who was diagnosed with MS last August, just 7 months ago.  This woman looks "normal."  Some days she doesn't see as well as she used to.  Some days her legs are achy, or her head hurts, or she's so exhausted she sits on the couch all day.  If you saw her you wouldn't even know anything was wrong.  I would, though, because that woman is me.  

Most of you don't know me, but I'll tell you this: I am not sitting in a wheelchair right now.  I'm sitting on my couch, legs "criss-cross-applesauce," typing this post and watching SkitGuys videos on my husband's computer.  It's been a good day and everything feels fine.  On Saturday, though, I woke up with severe leg pain.  I took ibuprofen as soon as I woke up and again throughout the day.  Until I went to bed Saturday night, I was in pain.  You know what I did Saturday night, though?  I went roller skating with my family.  No one knew anything was wrong (other than my husband and my daughter's friend's mom, who also happens to have MS).  You can't tell by looking.  You can't tell by what I'm doing that day.  I like to tell myself I can do anything.


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So what exactly is MS?

Multiple sclerosis (or MS) is a chronic, often disabling disease that attacks the central nervous system (CNS), which is made up of the brain, spinal cord, and optic nerves. Symptoms may be mild, such as numbness in the limbs, or severe, such as paralysis or loss of vision. The progress, severity, and specific symptoms of MS are unpredictable and vary from one person to another. Today, new treatments and advances in research are giving new hope to people affected by the disease. (www.nationalmssociety.org)

What causes MS?

No one really knows for sure.  There are theories that say it's genetic, theories that say it's caused by a virus, or by the environment, by the foods we eat...no one knows.  It's generally accepted that MS is an auto-immune disorder, but no one really knows for sure where it comes from or what causes it.  Research is ongoing.  The National MS Society and other companies are trying hard to pin down the answers.  There are so many factors involved that it's a very difficult process!

Who gets MS?

Men do, and women.  Teenagers, elderly, children, middle-aged people.  White people, black people, green people.  MS can happen to anyone.  

Women are at least 2-3 times more likely to be diagnosed with MS than are men.  
Diagnosis is most common between the ages of 20 and 50.
MS occurs most frequently in Caucasians of Northern European descent.


So what do you do about MS?


Most people don't know they have MS until they have a somewhat major "exacerbation."  For me, it was 4 months of double vision, and nearly two years later, loss of vision in a field of my left eye.  A neurologist will diagnose, typically through an extensive series of tests, whether or not MS is the problem.  There are different types of MS, and a good neurologist should be able to tell, from both test results and medical history, the type.  


From there, most neurologists help patients choose a medication, often based on both MS type and insurance coverage.  Multiple Sclerosis medications don't, at this point, "fix" MS.  They're maintenance medications.  They help your body fight further exacerbations, in some cases cutting the amount of yearly episodes in half or more! Some doctors recommend changes in diet, as diet is theorized to be one cause of MS.  Whole foods diets are recommended (and really best for everyone), as they don't have the chemicals processed foods have.  Some neurologists will prescribe fatigue medications, some will prescribe pain medications, some will wait and see.  Treatment really depends on the doctor, the patient, the type of MS, and the severity of symptoms.


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What can I do to help??

Whether you are aware or not, you likely know someone who has MS.  (I hesitate to say say "suffering from MS" because right now, most days my biggest amount of "suffering" is the hour or so after I take my injection, and then a few days late when the injection site starts itching.  Some people, though, truly are suffering.)  Whether you see it or not, someone you know is likely exhausted, or achy, or not seeing straight. Whether you know it or not, someone you know could use your help to have a brighter future!

The National MS Society is working hard to find a reason for MS, to find new treatments for MS, to find a cure for MS!  The only way they can do any of that, though, is through public funding.  It's important, and it's vital.  People depend on it!

The National MS Society is ALWAYS open to donations for the cause.  They'll never ever tell you no!  You can visit the website at www.nationalmssociety.org to find out more!

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You can also help by joining a team and walking this year in one of the many WalkMS events around the country!  Find an event here and register today!  If you're local to the Indianapolis, Indiana area, I'd LOVE to have you join my team!  Think about it.  You could make a difference!  Join my team here!!

If you can't walk with me but would still love to help, please consider making a donation to my team!  Your donations will go straight to the National MS Society!  Every donation will put us one step closer to finding a reason for, finding a cure for, MS!  If you'd love to make a donation, visit my WalkMS page!  You won't win anything from me, you won't get any extra entries, there's no prize...for you, anyway.  The prize for me, though, and my family, and the families of your friends and family with MS, will be life-long!



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Multiple Sclerosis.  It's silent.  It's real.


Thursday, February 16, 2012

MS. Understood

I Fight Because...
...having multiple sclerosis means that I may not be able to walk when I wake up. Or that I may suddenly have impaired vision. Or that my memory will fail me for no apparent reason. The symptoms of MS are different for everyone - the only certainty is that we are making new strides every day in the fight against MS.
...my husband and 3 children shouldn't have to take care of me.  MS research is ongoing, and hopefully someday there will be an answer, a cure.
...I have to!

I Walk Because...
...I want to do something for the people, like me, living with multiple sclerosis. Today, there is no known cause or cure for MS. With a diagnosis occurring most frequently between the ages of 20 and 50, many individuals face a lifetime filled with unpredictability.  I was 30.

Every hour of every day someone is newly diagnosed with MS. I am walking for them.  I walk for ME.

Donate Because...
...the National Multiple Sclerosis Society uses funds collected from Walk MS to provide help for today through programs and services and hope for tomorrow through ongoing research for a cure.

Because we choose to walk for those who sometimes can't, because we choose to donate to Walk MS, we are getting closer to the hour when no one will hear the words, "You have MS."
 
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On April 28th, along with family and friends, I will be walking...for me...at WalkMS Indianapolis.  My team, MS. Understood, has a goal of raising $1000 for the National MS Society, and my personal goal is to raise at least $500 of those $1000.  

People, MS is real.  MS is exhausting.  MS is sometimes painful.  MS is heart-breaking.  MS is not understood.  It's not curable.  It's a life-changing diagnosis.  MS is real.

I'd love to have you join my team!  If you're "local" and have a spare morning on April 28th, I would LOVE to have you join my team and walk alongside me!  You can sign up to walk here.

If you're not local or don't have the time, I'd love for you to donate to my team!  Each team's donations help to fund research, through the National MS Society, which could someday find a cure for, or at the very least a reason behind, MS.  Please, consider a donation to team MS. Understood!  You can donate here.

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Some of you need more options.  Here are a couple:

For the month of February, EatSmart will donate 50 cents to the National MS Society for every new Google+ "like."  It's easy and FREE for you!  Run on over to EatSmart's Google+ page, like them, and "donate" 50 cents!  (Wanna know more about why?  Check out my post on the EatSmart blog!)

Now through the end of April, WunderUnders will donate $5 of EVERY embellished trainer to my team's fundraising efforts!  Danielle from WunderUnders is an amazing, sweet mama.  She'd love love love to make you a cute trainer (or 5) and she'd also love to donate to my team!  Please visit WunderUnders on Facebook and make your purchase today!

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Friends, I am so very thankful for each and every one of you and your support over the last few months!  You've all shared some great, inspiring words with me!  I appreciate each and every one of you!

If you can, I'd love to have you walk alongside me or donate to my team.  I am forever grateful for the love each of you show every day!


Sunday, November 13, 2011

Walk MS!

Walk MS

Dear Friends and Family,

The National MS Society is kicking off their annual Walk MS events. I am going to be a part of Walk MS and want you to join me in the fight against multiple sclerosis by coming to the walk with me or making a contribution to support my effort.  My team, MS. Understood, will be walking in the Indianapolis Walk MS on April 28, 2012.

The Indiana State Chapter of the National MS Society is dedicated to creating a world free of MS.  They simultaneously fund research for a cure while also helping people who currently live with MS lead more fulfilling lives.  I believe in the work they do, and I invite you to see for yourself all the good they've done for the MS community.  More than 10,000 Hoosiers live with MS, and your support can and will make changes in their lives.

Please help by making a donation - large or small - to fight MS. Or join me on the day of the event? Become a participant and side by side, as teammates, we can work together to raise the funds to make a difference.
Whatever you can give will help! I greatly appreciate your support and will keep you posted on my progress.

Sincerely,
Elizabeth

Go to my personal page and make a secure, online donation.